IVF Strong

IVF Strong

I thought long and hard before posting my pregnancy announcement on social media. Not because I wasn’t prepared to shout my happy news from the rooftops, but because I knew how much it hurt me to see announcement after announcement while I struggled with unexplained infertility. Emotions peaked from drugs pumping through my body only made my sadness more real. Glowing woman with round bumps at the grocery store would send me into tears. 

I took so many shots over the past two years, I lost count. Shots in my belly and painful shots in my butt. Shots from my husband, mom, neighbors, friends, anyone willing to poke me and slowly plunge the syringe full of hormones into my bruised and swollen skin. Birthday dinners, Christmas parties, bent over the arm rest of the car, bathroom stalls, weekend getaways to forget we were struggling...I took these shots anywhere and everywhere, because I HAD TO. 

Infertility is a curse, a sadness deep in your soul so painful it hurts to breathe sometimes. I felt weak, I felt worthless, I felt like a burden, to my sweet husband, incredible doctors and caring family members asking when we were going to have a baby already. 

When I share with the world my joy and happiness that I FINALLY get to become a Mama, what I have dreamed and wished for since I was a little girl playing on the farm, dressing my baby goats up as babies and feeding them from bottles, I also feel pain. Pain for my friends, family, woman I have never met who are struggling with infertility. I understand the pain you may feel as my belly grows and your doesn’t, or only does from painful medicines and procedures with no happy results to show for it. I was there! Know that I am your ally, I am your friend, I am your biggest supporter cheering you on. I have faith that this process will work for you too. 

Together we are IVF STRONG! 

My needles from IVF!